two steps back,

I feel like I'm back where I started. I'm at a loss. I can't sleep, I can't enjoy the things I used to. I don't know where this is even going. I know a lot of people have it a lot worse. Actually, I have really nothing to complain about. I have everything I need, there's nothing else I ask for, but it's like I'm never satisfied. And I hate that about myself. Maybe it's just an off day? Or maybe off week. Or something. I don't feel right, I feel like I'm just watching myself on auto-pilot. (hahahh) But really. I can't sleep, but at the same time I'm afraid to wake up. Man, this is all bullshit. Let's hope this just passes over. This isn't my week, frl.