Tearing apart..

I don't know what to do anymore, because everytime this happens... It's always the same story. Ok, it's like you leave me out on the things that I should be included in and now your completely just leaving me out on your hang outs. I really don't want to say this but, I think it's time i've said this but you know how it's this little JNH thing, it's starting to feel like JNMH. What is that all about..? So im going to start off saying that I don't even want to have to feel this way anymore because everything these past months are mostly of me being sad or left out. I'ts fine not telling me things, but at least tell me what's going on and include me in things. I'm really not having an urge to go to school for the first day, on Monday all because of this. But when I'm at school, i'm just going to completley ignore everything as if it's all "OK". So yeah, I am a girl who will keep her word and hide her emotions, but not a girl who will be able to show them easily. Falling apart, WILL SOMEONE PICK UP THE PIECES IN ME, please?