Maybe It's More,

Summer isn't as great as I expected it to be. Straightening everything out is going downhill. I'm not even sure if I'm going to pass anything. This week will determin it, I guess. I thought this summer of change would be sort of exciteing, when all I am is scared. I'm scared to have to compare this summer to last summer. In the end, I always will. Until something better comes along.. I guess. It's kind of stupid to be complaing about this all over again. Stupid.. to be complaing in the first place. Shouldn't I be thankful? But, when it comes down to it, for what? When I really think about things, I feel like there's something wrong, or someone missing. I can't quite put my finger on it, but I can definetly feel it. Seems like every move I make, is a move I'll just end up regretting later on. Kinda tired of being a dissappointment to not only other people, but to myself. I have a devil on one side of me, saying it's okay, you need escapes like this to keep you sane. And and angel on the other side, telling me if I keep going at this rate, I won't have anybody left. I don't know, I just want to do what I want. But what I want isn't always the right thing in the longrun. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. I wish I had all the answers. I just need someone who I know that will always be there for me NO MATTER WHAT. One of those, True Friends.